Snowing Snowing Snowing....

It must be very hard for a lot of people on the road, slippy, snowy... and stuffs... but for mom.  She has the "Safe feeling" at home. That is good.

Even she is not feeling very energetic, I still make sure she eats. Plus she make sure she eats too... Good to have Mickey and Cookie around Mom. They somehow give her a bit of FUN / Entertain.

For those of you who would like to drop a line for mom in order to support her. Please go to "Comment" and click, write down your words. You have to choose Comment as "PRofile" ... if you know what you should pick, pick the one you want to; If you don't know what to pick, please just pick the last one. then click "Preview". You will put the "words" in the box and click "Post a comment".

Isn't that simple? hahaaha! Ok .... Need to check on Mom now... .

She is very sensitive

Dear all,

I am very glad some of you talked to my Mom over the phone. When she is well, she talks once in a while. When she is not well, I turn off the phone ring and she can rest.

When you have some people's stories/ experiences that you want to tell her, PLEASE, PLEASE let me know before you tell her. Whatever you tell her and she will apply into her own case. She is very unstable mindset now. PLEASE, if you have any stories regarding how people reacted on the Chemo, or stuffs, Please NOT to tell her how other people react. She will feel how that people reacting to Chemo as well. It is so NOT GOOD now...

As she found out some people reacted with CHEMO sick after 7-10days, then she counted her schedule and reacted the same things (I am not sure if she reminds herself in her mind or she thinks she should have that)

If you get a chance to talk to her, Please tell her the BRIGHT side, POSITIVE things... PLEASE...

this will make my life easier.

Thank you very much.

It is ok to tell her how the regular side effects. For example, You can tell her how fish is a good food resource for her, how fresh fist it should be, and how the nutritutions for her. But please not to tell her that you will probably "CHOKE the fish bones". For her mindset now, she realy thinks she is going to choke....

Good lunch @ Jim Chai Kee

For me, I didn't have a good sleep, bcoz I couldn't go to sleep until 6am this morning. Woke up around 9am since Mom got up and walked around.


I got up and asked how she felt. She was feeling very terrible yesterday and she was very very OK this morning. She asked if she could go to get some BEEF for the meals. Of coz she could. As long as she can eat. I wouldn't mind to be driver and her chef (of coz, she has no choice when Kenneth is not available. Sorry, Kenneth, at this moment I have to count you as one of the reliable chef for my mom. =))

Anyway, I asked her where she wanted to go for Lunch, she asked me if she could go to Jim Chai Kee for lunch. Sure! Why not? (I guess she was wondering if Kenneth would eat with us or not, too bad, Kenneth already had lunch box and enjoying it when we were heading to Jim Chai Kee).

We arrived at Jim Chai, and Mom already knew what she wanted. Beef slices with rice noodle. Well, somehow there were so much MSG everywhere, but Jim Chai Kee has lesser MSG (at least to us). We chit chat... and mom gave me the following look...

So Obvious, she got better today. She finished the WHOLE thing by herself plus couple bites of the Yau Choi. She only wore her hand-made sweater. She said she was not cold at all. Good Good Good Sign... Ok, it was time to take a good picture.

 Nice picture, but my phone sucks! the lens was not GOOD! a bit Foggy. heheee!

Anyway, we went to Church office and actually mom had a good short talk with Rev. Terence. (Thank you for praying with my mom, Rev. Terence) Of coz, Thank other staffs in the church office. I am sure you all pray for my Mom. THank you. (Well well well, I know all of you pray for my mom as well... just at that moment, I felt so support physically in the office)...

All of a sudden, Mom felt not very good, so we hurried back home but still stopped at Foody and got mom's beef and went home immediately.

She went to bed right the way, and I felt so sick and felt to sleep with Mickey and Cookie. She started to got up around 5pm. She wanted to cook for herself (she knew Kenneth will come for dinner, wanna make something for him) and end up ... I had Lewis, Wenkie and Cache as surprised guests for my mom. They always brought smile and sunshine to my Mom. Thank you.

What a day! I am so tired now... had very very bad headache, better go to sleep now... or I don't think I will function well tomorrow. Another long day, man.

PS: For your information, Ka Ho had his presentation this morning. Due to his nervous and worries, he was actually with me walking around in the house 6am in the morning. He went dead right after dinner (after scouting). Good, he won't go out at night tonight. MOm and I will have a good sleep. They both already sleep deeply. It is my time to rest. Good night, everyone. 

My Mom's regular entertainers (Day by Day)

Some of you are not keen on having pets, bcoz of their dirtiness and their behaviors. I love them so much, bcoz they actually heal me from my sadness. They keep me company no matter how much I take them away from my room, they are just waiting for me at the door. Sneak their heads into the room and check if I am allow them to go in.

After Boy Jai (my 1st standard poodle), I had Connor, and now Cookie is the only one left behind. He is getting old too. I don't change my behavior towards him bcoz of his age. He still looks the same to me. He still protects my family very closely. He take pain killer for joints, but still very alert to our activities.

He is not only protecting me, but he has the sense whether or not Mom is ok. He walks around with pain in the morning. When I am not at home, he make sure sitting at the Front door where block from outsiders and at the same time, he can stare at my Mom's room and being alert to my Mom's actions.

This morning, I found out the garbage bag which I was going to take out to Garage was broken. Based on the size of the hole and the traces (yeah, I love to watch C.S.I) and I know that was done by Cookie.

I shouted to Mom, "Mom, we are in trouble. We have a BIG Raccoon inside the house." Then I heard the ALMOST RUNNING FOOTSTEPS from mom's room to the 2nd floor hallway. Mom looked at me and asked, "Where is the Raccoon?" I pointed to Cookie who just standing beside my mom looking at me and mom. "THIS BIG RACCOON, I am going to buy smelly tofu and cook him up tonight, he ate the chicken mcnugget in the garbage bag."

Mom laughed and looked at Cookie, Cookie used 9.9 sec to run into Ka Ho's room and hide from her.



Thank you, Cookie. Make Mom laughed for 5 secs this morning.



Then, some of you may know I am pet sitting my friend's dog, Mickey. Well, just don't know how to say about this Dog. Same as Cookie, he is a senior (darn... I am living in a senior home). He doesn't bark, but scream like a sea skull; He sleeps more than anyone of us. He tries out EVERY SINGLE of the Cushions in my house. No matter how much my mom complains about his bad smell mouth, Mom still let him stays in her room with her. (He snores louder than anyone of us... *Sigh*...) but mom just loves to look at him. He will looks back to my mom's eyes too.

He looks like Smiling. Just bcoz he lost some of his front teeth already.

Doesn't matter, he gives us a lot of entertainments. SERIOUSLY, A LOT!!!!!!!!!!! Look at the following picture, and you know I am serious about serious.

Not by Ka Ho, Not by me, of coz, not by Mom. Who else? (Kenneth). Mickey has the deepest sleep that I ever seen among other dogs. However, Kenneth puts his new drawing on Mickey and Mickey just kept sleeping.... sleeping... even snoring after this picture taken (please note: he even snores beside me really loud NOW!). I should say Thank you to Lewis, but letting me pet sitting his dog so my mom has some entertain time after time.

Mom sudden laughs really hard bcoz she rethinks about what Mickey did. *sigh* That is why I love my mom being so simple and innocent.

Finally, the side effects are here

(Mom was so concentrating to the newspaper, bcoz she didn't want to feel like tired and be a patient)

I went to accupunture myself, end up I cancelled it bcoz Mom was not feeling well this morning. I wanted to go home early to just be there for her. Even end up she would be in her room and I would be in my room... but the symtoms are out....

She thought she feeling dizzy bcoz of the "Greenbean soup", but I knew it was the side effects.

She had been burbing since last night. If she keep burbing it ... I will call the nurse.

She feel cold... Not too sure if I should add more blankets to her, bcoz she didn't want the heater go up ($$$ plus she doesn't like HOT environment).

However, I told her to sleep whenever she felt tired, or loss energy. I told her to rest from reading newspaper when she felt weird.

Mom didn't want to have those side effects, had been fighting against it in the past 2 days. It is time for the side effects out as she couldn't control her body anymore.

Not that I am worried, just very frustrating inside. However, please DO CALL to our house, I don't want to pick up any call.

I think something really bothers me in my mind, and I can't focus and concentrate to what I am good at.

I just want to be alone... just alone... want to cry out loud... really do.

(I know .. i know I need to hang on... and stuffs. I know what I need to do, but just can't control the depression anymore... wanna cry out loud.)

Don't worry. I will be fine.

Dear Lord,

Beside you, I bet no one can help me now. I can't control my tears come down from my eyes. I can't control mom's condition. There are so many human can't do but only YOU. I know you love me very much. Mom's condition is really bothering me. Still have3 more months to do. How can I be ok? Without you, I am nothing. Seriously, I am really tidy small.. smaller than the dust. Please Lord, your power is all covering us. Please take mom's uncomfort away. Please take Dad's tears away. Please give power to King & Ka Ho's as he is so exhausted from school work and taking care of Mom. Please don't let me think stupid things. Please take all those non-sense ideas away from me. God, I love you. I love you... I really want to hug you. Actually, I guess I really need your hug. I really do. Love you. In the name of Jesus Christ. ~Amen.

Reiki a day, keeps the blood cells alive

Believe or not. Li's family came all the way from Mississauga to visit Mom. They went to lunch with us at Gal's sushi. Mom finished 1/2 L4 Bento box. She was so happy that she could eat the Sashimi. I am not too sure if this is ok for mom to eat this, but it seems like Mom is ok to eat that. Good to have Li's family to chit chat with mom. She needs some companies.

As you could see, Li's family was doing "Reiki" for mom. (For people you don't know what Reiki is, please google it. I don't want to explain it a bit.) Anyway, if you could see, there was not only Mom's benefit, but M&M.

Mom & Mickey (the dog on my mom's lap)

After an hour Reiki, Mom took a very good rest and started to eat the dried prume. Good that she had such mood to eat that.

(*my dearest Cousin Yu Hon was hiding behind and eating pizza. Thank you for everything and for bringing your parents to Markham and keeping my mom happy)

Thank you, Uncle Dave, Auntie Judy and Yu Hon (also to Jennfier, and daughters. Letting them come over for visiting.)

THank you.

苦中帶咸

今朝偷影阿媽講電話。。。

各位﹐唔使擔心﹐阿Lily 姐仲精神過嘉浩同我。

只係開始個口好咸同苦﹐唔係今想食野。不過﹐唔好以為佢真係唔食。只係揀D想食既﹐如果唔係好extreme﹐我無問題。唯獨是唔會想佢食甜野 (因為好多人都話Cancer cell 向糖份高既環境生長。

Anyway, she is doing ok up to now. It is Day 2 after 1st Chemo. Looks pretty good...

I will take care of her as much as I can.